So, yea.. the last sentence. Speak YOUR truth. And yea, we need to hear it. I want to hear it.

Martin, on much, much different topics I have given speeches and presentations. Shared the stage a few times. I’ve always found that as long as I stick to my truth I’m all good. I don’t wonder into someone else’s truth unless it becomes necessary. Maybe this is a bad example, but I’ll try.

I gave a presentation to a board of directors on the expected results of my manufacturing operation with an emphasis on a specific commodity market. There were three of us with our own operation in the same market.

I went…Seemed all good. 2nd and 3rd guy went. Their perspective on the commodity market was different than mine. So, the EVP asked me about their conclusions and why mine was different. Rather than ditch their research I just reinforced my own.

The EVP said, “That’s the biggest bunch of bullshit I’ve ever heard”. I just said that’s my conclusion from my research and it supports my projection.

I spoke my truth. It’s not my job to speak someone else’s. Let them do th

Peace of mind is important to our well being. Only do so if you have the fortitude for it. I repeat often : "No weapon formed against me shall prosper"; it's my armour!

Wounded? Nay. Seasoned and wise. And also with the Armour of God. Follow your heart and remember your true judge and jury (and also the one to persevere whatever fall-out) is the man in the glass. Whichever way you choose, you're a great and valued contributor and that, sometimes, that's enough.

Do it, if you can tolerate it. You are a warrior! You have more than 10x the silent supporters than you do vocal ones. Probably 100x. You are an inspiration to so many.

If you have a story to tell, I am sure most of us, with some of the same symptoms as you, would greatly appreciate your courage in going the distance for all of us. All of your postings have great encouragement! Please don't let what they have inflicted upon us stop you from encouraging others. God has a job for all of us and my personal feelings are... IF GOD BRINGS YOU TO IT, HE WILL LEAD YOU THRU IT. I trust that he has some people just waiting for his words that will be spoken thru you. BE HIS VESSEL! After prayer of course!

I think your gut feelings are the ones you should listen too. Yes , more people might get the message if you go in person, but the message might not be the same, because of your inner feelings. If nothing else, do zoom. Let the Lord lead you in this. God Bless. 😉👍

Your last line is the one that sticks out for me. Not being responsible for the others on stage.
Is there some sense of “Bog of Eternal Stench” here?
That proximity invokes agreement?
A set up for future attacks?
The taint of tar babies has always been an effective silencer. Even when we don’t fall for the trap that seeks to stick one on us. The outcome is the same.

Silence.

The act of mitigation on either side is exhausting.
For me. Distancing myself from those who are off the mark, by wide margins, comes down to the question of integrity. Are the differences such, that it impairs the message I’ve been given? If so, it’s a firm no to working with them. This does seem to limit “surface” area and serves to make me appear unsuccessful in the eyes of those who strive for more. I just sleep better at night knowing I was true to the message. Too many have tried to co-opt my “work” and proven who they really are for me to care to join them.
Peace

i don’t begin to put myself in your shoes but you’ve just described in part what we all struggle with being in the flesh vs the will of the spirit. The flesh never wants to be uncomfortable but the spirit is your true self pushing you to fear not for GOD is with you. It is the gift you have been given! 🙏🏻 💜

😇🙏😘I THINK YOU SHOULD DO IT MARTIN
YOU WOULD BE GREAT YOU HAVE A LONG TIME TO PREPARE FOR IT AND YOUR VOICE IS A HUGE ONE IN OUR MOVEMENT OF TRUTH AND YOUR OWN PERSONAL STORY AND GROWTH YOUR TRUTH IS IMPORTANT REGARDLESS OF WHERE YOU SPEAK ON A STAGE SOCIAL MEDIA OR IN YOUR ESSAYS
PRACTICE AND PREPARE YOU CAN ALWAYS BOW OUT AT THE LAST MINUTE IN A PROFESSIONAL WAY WE SUPPORT YOU EITHER WAY
NO ONE WOULD LOOK DOWN UPON YOU IF THEY DO THEY ARE NOT A SUPPORTIVE FRIEND
PRAY UPON IT MARTIN LET GOD LEAD YOU
TRUST YOURSELF TRUST YOUR HEART AND THE HOLY SPIRIT IN YOU

If ya go just get in out quick
Plan your entry and exit so you can return home quick and remove from the space and energies.
Tell them to send questions to website

I read or saw a video recently where a woman said God does not test us, he trains us. Training is hard work ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Well I would suggest praying on it and asking God for a sign. God answers prayers. We'll ask too. Proverbs 11:14

I’d go ahead and schedule it if it’s next year as I feel things will most definitely change for the better that should give a pep in your step by the time it comes to speak. If not, cancel & tell them your going back to your cave and call when it does change! 😁

Martin, do what heals your heart. Sometimes speaking releases the energy better than writing, but that's not saying you should or should not as your soul knows what makes sense for you. Related, you may consider contacting this place, one of the best homeopathic pharmacies in the world. There are remedies specifically for speaking anxiety. Magic Pills is a documentary on Amazon Prime which shows just how good a good homeopath is.
https://www.helios.co.uk/en/contact/getting-advice

You are one of the few that addresses the mental, emotional and physical stress that most are going through. Your honesty helps me realize that I’m not alone & some days I can hardly function. Your words help & heal🥰

Is this something God has put on your heart? Is He giving you a mission? If it's from God, He'll give you the strength and wisdom! God Bless!!

Hi Martin! The supplement GABA helps with anxiety. My thought on the possible speaking engagement is if it's something you love to do, then do it. If not, decline. However, if you speak as eloquently as you write, it could help in the common mans transition from head in the sand to free thinker. Not to add that weight to your concerns. Oh wow.....this entire post is one big contradiction. 🤷‍♀️

I can so relate to your second paragraph Martin. I dream of the day I can leave here and have the peace and privacy I have needed for so long. I've never felt like a stranger in a strange land more than I have the last 6 plus years. I just want to live my life in peace and fulfill my purpose for being here.

Good morning fren. Do it! I understand the anxiety but do you think it will be there when you are embraced with open arms. You have been a major figure in this battle and there is so much love for you. You have shared your personal battles with us, your soul family. I don't think you will regret speaking. I have never been to a truther event but every time you hear about them, all people talk about is the love. Heck, when I meet 1 person that is awake and I can have a conversation with , it always ends with a hug and I love you. Love saves the World! Maybe we will cross paths one day friend. I have a hug and I love you ready for you 💚🐸

Do what feels right in your heart.... I am sure many would benefit from your voice but at the same time you need to take care of yourself as I believe there will be another stage better suited for Gods Warriors..... Praying 🙏

if you're asking for input on your dilemma, I think you should accept because it is far enough in the future to prepare yourself mentally and spiritually and you're sounding pretty strong already!

Just tell them you are unable to accept the invitation at this time.

Lifting you up to the Father in Jesus name asking to lift this spirit up off of you giving you courage and strength Martin. Praise God for you Martin, you have a way with words. God bless you.

Good 🌄 Morning Martin 😊