I have a personal dilemma. I am sat on an invite to be a speaker at an event next year. It involves sharing the stage with other "notables" of the truth and freedom movement.

Part of me has wanted to just become a "digital recluse" and stay away from all public speaking. I am moderately traumatised from the last few years and the nonstop stress involved, and some days I feel paralysingly anxious and low energy as a result. Having a commitment to appear in public looms over me, especially as the time gets near. I don't relish the attention of the masses, or endless correspondence. It's not ideal for my health.

That said, I used to do this kind of presenting for a living, and I am fairly good at it, too. Part of me says go fight the good fight, even if you are a wounded warrior. I kind of played for all the intellectual chips with Q — and won. I have something to say, and a story to tell, which people need to hear. I am not responsible for the others I share a stage with.

I learned some time ago not to force anything, but like you I suffer from trauma and anxiety and realize that if I don't feel the feels, I can't heal the heals. Stepping out of our comfort zones can be quite liberating, but you already know that. Love to you my friend.