I have a personal dilemma. I am sat on an invite to be a speaker at an event next year. It involves sharing the stage with other "notables" of the truth and freedom movement.
Part of me has wanted to just become a "digital recluse" and stay away from all public speaking. I am moderately traumatised from the last few years and the nonstop stress involved, and some days I feel paralysingly anxious and low energy as a result. Having a commitment to appear in public looms over me, especially as the time gets near. I don't relish the attention of the masses, or endless correspondence. It's not ideal for my health.
That said, I used to do this kind of presenting for a living, and I am fairly good at it, too. Part of me says go fight the good fight, even if you are a wounded warrior. I kind of played for all the intellectual chips with Q — and won. I have something to say, and a story to tell, which people need to hear. I am not responsible for the others I share a stage with.
Your last line is the one that sticks out for me. Not being responsible for the others on stage.
Is there some sense of “Bog of Eternal Stench” here?
That proximity invokes agreement?
A set up for future attacks?
The taint of tar babies has always been an effective silencer. Even when we don’t fall for the trap that seeks to stick one on us. The outcome is the same.
Silence.
The act of mitigation on either side is exhausting.
For me. Distancing myself from those who are off the mark, by wide margins, comes down to the question of integrity. Are the differences such, that it impairs the message I’ve been given? If so, it’s a firm no to working with them. This does seem to limit “surface” area and serves to make me appear unsuccessful in the eyes of those who strive for more. I just sleep better at night knowing I was true to the message. Too many have tried to co-opt my “work” and proven who they really are for me to care to join them.
Peace
