Hang in there Martin.
Many of us sacrificed all that we are/have.

In the End - it'll be worth is ALL.
WE ARE WITH YOU.

So many are right there with you......feeling the same pain!

I went for a social drink the other day and there was no talk about anything related.

keep is secret
it felt good talking about nothing.

I can relate... And part of our health is setting our minds each day. Not always easy. But you can do this, I can do this, we all can do this!🙏❤️😇👊🌻 Some other things that help me: watching comedies/musicals, praying/talking to God, getting out in the sun, breathing on purpose, forgiving the ones who've hurt me (including family and friends), connecting on this platform, hanging out with my pets, listening to fun music, dancing, walking, they gym, staying in the moment and appreciating those moments, trying something different (like a making a new recipe), counting blessings and being thankful for what I do have (including shelter, food, water) and not focusing on what I don't have, knowing deep inside that better days are ahead, giving myself grace at the end of each day and resting. Somedays, it's a struggle and I don't want to get up. But He helps me. I hope any of these help you too! You are a blessing to many, Martin! Have a great Sunday!

Well shared, Thank Q for sharing, Glad you know there are anons, patriots, caring people that share in honour with integrity.
Appreciating those sharing in Holding the line, comforting thoughts, its not a journey of faint of heart, its great reading your inspiring posts Martin, Thank you kindly for your efforts, loving, blissing, blessings to you, Sharing in Peace and prosperity to come.
For WWG1WGA

You will be Ok Brother, this too shall pass, and those You Love the most are never lost, in time all will come back to You, and You will be there with open arms.

I share your feelings, many are struggling right now, I hope we are near the end, whatever that means. We have to keep moving forward and do what we can to help others.
🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻

I feel this! You Are Not Alone. at least you have something besides yourself to sell dot-dot. Always find the positive

I too am haunted by the memories of lost friends and family, and it is exhausting. I'm haunted by how I handled situations, knowing I did the best I could, wondering if I could have done things differently.

My expectations continue to change year after year. Some 20 years ago, when I began awakening, I wanted to bring everyone into the fold, nobody wanted to follow the breadcrumbs. I couldn't understand why. Time passes, I learn to keep my thoughts to myself. Trauma inducing behavior.

Fast forward and COVID hits, most people still don't see the writing on the wall. My expectations change yet again. I thought for sure most would wake up immediately, after all, it was so obvious to me what was unfolding.

In the end Martin, we will triumph and come out on the other side a people set free. The emotional trauma which has build up will eventually crumble like a dam, and the tears and healing will flow. Stay strong my friend. WWG1WGA

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It's real. When it hit me, I could actually measure its effects with my wrist watch heart rate monitor. My resting h/r went to 42 for several weeks. I'm athletic but not THAT level of athletic... energy and drive went down along with the h/r.

Protect yourself: prune appointments (I loved your "De-Clocked" reference) and commitments. Operate only when/where YOU choose. When you're in command of your life (and not others) you'll start regaining your inner drive and passions.

If I note the time of year, the weather and your latitude up there I suspect some of it may be a seasonality-driven effect on you. I think you're doing all the right things to grapple with it, though.

It'll come back.