I don't know what battles you're fighting in your life right now, but sometimes you have to let go of things that are hurting you, for your physical and mental health. There's always something better on our horizon because God wants us to have the best. Unfortunately, we in our own understanding, want to hold on to whatever it is we're holding on to because we think if we just keep fighting, it'll get better. Sometimes, God's waiting for us to let go and give Him control and say "I can't do this on my own, I need You to guide me in the ways You want me to go." I'm not much in the grand scheme of things, but you're my sister in the Lord and I can offer my friendship and prayer and a strong shoulder to lean on. God bless ya!