my wife has passed on. i will not be here for awhile. i cannot cope.

i am so sorry. 🙏🙏🙏 with you and your family. you have a lot of things going on my friend. This is a very challenging time for everyone who enters a hospital.

She was already so weak when she got in the hospital, and all the other factors included, by the time she got to ICU on the bipap it was too late. Her body rejected the vent and went into cardiac arrest. They brought her back once for about 15 minutes and she redlined again. That's when the decision was made to let her go.

She did not stand a chance in there. And it's all my fault.

YOU CANNOT BLAME YOURSELF. YOU TRIED. SHE WAS DOING WELL. THE SAD REALITY IS WE ARE DEALING WITH DEMONS. it is tough. my father died October 19th. i am just getting to the point where i am processing everything.

Malpractice is at the highest point. It is expensive to pursue but it is worth it. God is showing me things very clear right now. i am talking about my situation not yours. i will not rest until all drs and family pay !

try to get some rest. it has been a very long road. you have a lot to deal with. karla made her choice. you respected it. i am fighting this with my father’s choice. God showed me yesterday, IT WAS MY FATHER’S CHOICE I NEED TO RESPECT THAT, FORGIVE HIM AND MOVE FORWARD.

i have a lot of family drama that has been going on for years. NOW the family has God and the courts to answer to. The jab was the final nail in my father’s coffin, but my family pit him in the coffin.

Yes, her family had multiple opportunities to save her life. No one listened to me and because of that, she is gone. I am not going to point fingers or hold grudges over it, because she wouldn't want that. The grief is killing me fast enough that I shall soon be with her. I do not think there is any "moving forward" for me. This is a pain unlike any I've ever experienced, and it's killing me. Weak, tired, confused, angry all these emotions rolled into one. I just want to get into my bed and decay. It would be one thing if it were natural loss, but I don't feel it is. The suddenness of it-just I can't even explain it.

I feel you on this. my father would still be alive today if it wasnt for “his family”. I am adopted. My father was a stubborn man and he made his choices. i am not going to kill myself over the choices my father made. It has been a long process and the pain was intense at times. However, God has a purpose for us and eventually you will see this.

i do not know the details of your wife’s journey, but you have to remember it was her journey. We may not understand it, but we do have to respect it. trust me i do not like it either. Had “my family” stayed away, my father would gave recovered years ago but he chose to allow the family drama. i refused to allow it in the end. i know i was keeping him alive, but not without causing stress on me.

I need to come to terms with all this and ultimately my father made his choices and i will not allow his bad choices to continue affecting me. I believe God will take care of those who caused him harm. love and forgiveness is the wa