i am convinced of it too. i've seen his eyes go black many times. in a recent written journal release experience, i realized evil/this matrix used him to "imprison" me - dim my light - keep me quiet and in isolation. i am trying hard to get out - it's a matter of finding affordable housing. i talk about it openly on my coffee page. i'm on housing lists. i have a fundraiser. trying to increase my income to get there (the coffee site was one idea). i've spoken with 2 attorney's - in my state i can't even take out a restraining order. unless it's documented physical and/or sexual, i am on my own. i have ample documentation of his rages - but a judge doesn't have to consider that. the counselor i am seeing for PTSD went through similar here and the judge declined her evidence of narc abuse. the whole SYSTEM is narcissistic.