Oh phooey, I wish I wasn't reminded of certain things in my past.
My first marriage lasted a little more than 2 years.
My husband was so abusive, that I wound up feeling that I had to ask permission to go to the bathroom. I was changed beyond recognition, even to myself.
Thank God I got away from him.
My lawyer had to extract my whole story from me, like pulling teeth, because I was so humiliated.
Then she told me that I was lucky to have survived.
I guess our experiences may help us begin to understand what MKULTRA and other victims are up against.
Compassion.

i am so sorry you went through that hell - and happy/relieved you got out. it inspires me to keep going. and yes you do get changed - i was crying about just that very thing today. i want ME back - i want this exhausted traumatized apathetic angry emotional wreck that i became healed and released. i'm tired of being frozen. i'm tired of feeling trapped. i'm tired of asking for help. i'm tired of knowing this comes down to money. i hope the plan changes quickly so housing can become affordable again! i've been putting my request out there for alternative housing - MIL units, extra home on property not being used - talking to people - sharing my story - saying i am needing a break. someone who SEE ME where i am and can help me and my girl. i keep talking about it because so many of us go through this here. took me years - but i finally woke up to the horrible choice i made and what it did to me. as one friend said there are humans and demons here.

Aloha
I had one that was so cruel,too.
For "better or worse" is a horrible to do to anyone.
Til death do you part.
The words of satan I am now sure of.
Good Luck with whatever you do.
Stay safe
protect the children from this Narcissist
Narcissist Are employees of satan imo

Oh I agree.
Narcissists and all abusers are working for Satan, whether they know it or not!

i am convinced of it too. i've seen his eyes go black many times. in a recent written journal release experience, i realized evil/this matrix used him to "imprison" me - dim my light - keep me quiet and in isolation. i am trying hard to get out - it's a matter of finding affordable housing. i talk about it openly on my coffee page. i'm on housing lists. i have a fundraiser. trying to increase my income to get there (the coffee site was one idea). i've spoken with 2 attorney's - in my state i can't even take out a restraining order. unless it's documented physical and/or sexual, i am on my own. i have ample documentation of his rages - but a judge doesn't have to consider that. the counselor i am seeing for PTSD went through similar here and the judge declined her evidence of narc abuse. the whole SYSTEM is narcissistic.