I don’t know how other people cope with classified intel and having a split life. Just knowing about the Covid depopulation plan would have been a disturbing horror. It’s bad enough being a “sane psychotic” in the exoteric, with dual social realities. I guess some people are built for it, and others are not.
That’s partly what compartmentalization (need to know) is about. That is also why “they” promote those who “think” like them, and weed out those who ask too many questions.