Tonight's Moon.

I know this was posted quite a few days ago...
Just wanted to say, I love the moon a lot and I love that you share photos of the moon with us...Your camera is phenomenal...

It has always stumped me on how to take a proper photo of the moon. In person, it seems so near, but when I take a photo of it, it always seems so far away and tiny in comparison to what my eyes witness in person.

It would be like taking a photo of my favorite star in the sky or my favorite piece of physical art...I just can't seem to capture its essence quite right and my eyes seem to experience so so much more with seeing it in person...

The memory of the photograph is always nice thought...I could tell you of times when I was on the beach up at Lake Superior back in 2014 and we had that series of Blood Moons that year...It was probably June...

A whole beach was partaking in a spiritual experience (well for me I always say spiritual--for others, they do it as a way to get fucked up). To each their own I guess...but I do remember every memory of each experience fondly and I was never getting into trouble just in awe of what I experience in nature around me...

My favorite time is at night around water and the blood moon was a perfect time...Well, everything was kosher and bunch of us started howling at the moon (lol--okay we are a bunch of weirdos, but it was kinda just like embracing the moment and feeling the now space together as a great big tribe of people) some in the tribe have left and some stay...I have my main people, my favorite people and there were people there I didn't know...but it was still a fun experience...Anyways...(thought I would have to explain need to howl at the moon, but I also love spirit animals--like a wolf--they are cuties).

Well, toward the end of the experience, long after the moon was red and already yellow again...The water went from calm and tranquil...the winds picked up and the waves started to crash...

You know how in Moana--the ocean called her on an adventure to travel the waves and find her destiny--the heart of the sea or whatever it was she was after, to restore her home?? Well at the time she didn't know it was for that...She met the tattooed guy along the way and he was like ego man and had been responsible for things happening...hmm...okay, but then the crab boss was sitting on it...hey it's been a long time since I watched it...I am trying to go off of memory...

I hold so much information in my brain...that watching a movie for the 2nd + time is like experiencing it for the first time because I always discover something new...

Well back to the waves--About 3 of us determined that the waves were telling us to GTFO the beach...The next day...3 of us went on a journey to CALIFORNIA.

We had really no money to do so...I think less than $500...Hey and gas prices back then were wayyyyy worse then they are even today...I mean YES WE HAD THE WORLD WITH TRUMP IN OFFICE...but that is a side note and since I am no longer medicating my ADHD and going natural, I have to discipline myself to accomplish a story in some particular order...Okay...back to it...

Okay, so the three of us make this last minute trip plan and hop in the car...For some reason I was the one doing most of the driving while the lil whiny bitch boy sat in the seat claiming he was tired...when I give him the passenger seat...he'd sit on his phone the whole time and didn't sleep...

Well SINCE I WAS THE ONE IN CONTROL...AND IT WAS MY CAR....I decided I was going to do this drive from Superior/Duluth--without A MAP...I decided as long as I knew that I was heading west...I couldn't go wrong...Lol...we even made it to NEW MEXICO...wayyyyy out of the way...Yea...the lil bitch was pissed it took so long, IDG

So, in New Mexico, I discovered that cigarettes were really cheap down there. You could get a pack for like $2.50...I am NOT certain if that is the way it is now...it's nearly 9 years into the future at this point and I seem to remember a time where they were only like $4.50 a pack in Minnesota...Not too long after this experience, did I learn to roll my own and it is so much cheaper and there are not added chemicals like they have in commercialized cigarettes.

Well, we eventually made it to CA...but by the time we made it to Northern California in Humbolt County...we had NO GAS money left...lol we got to this house and the house had a teepee in the backyard and it was the coolest thing ever...they had a rack for hula hoops and inside the house they had like their own little art gallery of art they created together...it was cool ...I really loved this area too...I was used to SoCal where I grew up and Northern Cali was a slower pace, more chill...Kinda like Minneapolis vs Superior.

As an empath, I do enjoy the slower pace...It was a dream since my early 20's to live in Uptown Minneapolis and be close to everything...But back then, during this time...I was spending a lot of nights out at the gay bar (I am straight) with my friends...at least 3x a week...Heyy that is when I was single and didn't have to worry about men controlling my life and keeping me from friends...The only enemy we had was my grandmother who used to pull my phone records and call and harrass my friends to get me back home...I was of age and she didn't want me with friends because she KNEW I told all my friends that her husband molested me as a child...so she instantly hated them...

One time, my friend Kiley and I were on our way to St. Cloud from Princeton area and we were going to something they created called "Unprom"...we were literally adults who dressed up in formal attire and went to fancy restaurant to have fun with a huggge group of friends...Those were fun times...

When I was out with my friends on nights like these, my grandma would call and call and call and keep me on the phone...I had minimal time to spend with my friends...One night she got angry because I didn't answer my phone on her command and so Kiley said let me see your phone...I want to record the VM clip for you....

He said:
"I'm sorry Sherrae can't come to the phone right now, she's locked in my basement..."

Lol he was mocking her and she took him seriously...We both thought it was hilarious to hear her reaction and her cussing Kiley out on the other end...He hated her and she hated him...My friends essentially adopted me and we were together as often as possible...we were a family...Kiley and I used to record little music videos together and dress up...sing RENT songs and he'd produce the videos...

Well, I went back to my family and chose a man over them...so they said bye bye...They spent all this energy having me learn to love myself and I chose BAD DNA over them...I

Heyyyy and it's not like I regret anything...I just wish I would have trusted my soul family at the time when they said my ex husband Joe was a creep and they didn't want him around me...

The thing about me is I don't like being told what to do by anyone...When I am told not to do something...it makes me challenge the situation and try to prove everyone wrong...Okay, so yea...shouldn't have played games here with my life and I should have known that my friends had my best interest in mind...We were inseparable...we were family...We were GREAT...heyyyy but they also used me too...let's get real here...they are mad because I was not single anymore and Raea/Sherrae more fun single because she isn't putting a man above them...Heyyyy that's not fair either...Yes they were right about him...but it's not fair to walk away because I'm not single anymore...they didn't try to know him...they were just like NOPE. Hey...and that's cool too...Now, I have the NOPES for my friends too....LOL.

But do I regret choosing love over friends...No, I don't--I don't want to marry and spend the rest of my life with my friends...I want them to have thier own lives and I have my own life and we get together to have fun and laugh till we cry...In the ideal world...everyone would have found their somebody and it would be like a couples retreat when we did have time to get together....

People who make life just about friends and living for the weekend or the party...are not going to experience the purpose and they are going to miss out on many many awesome opportunities if they hold themselves back...So no, I don't regret my choices...I took a chance...it failed...move on...It's not my fault that a lot of men suck and use women and treat them like dirt...Men also need to take accountability and the friends do too...

This isn't a control Sherrae till she fears everything by the end sort of story...I won't allow ANYONE to control me or my thoughts, dreams, and I WON'T settle for any1

So, glowing forward...I want to focus on the MEOW space and only visit the past to tap old musical memories or MAYBE watch a movie one day...I don't want to sit in a room with friends that I have now and talk about anything from the past and say remember when...Yea...what about now? I want to experience NOW, leading up to the future and where I want to be...

So, I hereby claim that I do NOT want to discuss friends from the past, trauma, OLD outcomes, OLD EXES, or anything OLD...That is silver screen SHIT and my life is no longer SHIT since I discovered to whom and what I am and to whom I belong to in the future...Right now, we just riding the eb and flow...and each time I have to visit the past to tell the same thing over and over again...I get cut open again and have to spend days healing...Today, I took a day off for the first time in 10 days in a row after putting in probably about 70 hours of drive time...I don't want to live like this anymore...I want to LIVE again for ME!

Not all memories are bad--fragments of the past I intend to hold onto...like the original MOON story...which trailed off into something irrelevant...I am just trying to center all of it...and say...I can visit the past if it has a positive reason or meaning behind it...a funny story to tell that I've never shared before...But the normal story of my life...the Trauma part...I already healed from all this...it was just these last parts of breaking free, play such a huge role in me becoming my own self again...that it has been necessary to get it all out there...I want to go back to less talking and more vibing...and just chill...at the right time, it will all make sense anyways...I do love my numbers though...I don't think I can quit those, or my spiritual mind maps...those are fun...but as far as personal life and story Idk...i'd rather here about what everyone's favorite pair of socks are and why? You know...we've all got to have that ONE FAVORITE pair...and there is a reason...

So...How bout a MOON key...
I can think of an initial TWO songs that remind me of the MOON and the first song leads me back to dream of MARS the PLANET and everything MARS truly means to me in the ende...but that is neither here nor there...let's just Vibe with music...don't really want to talk much more outside of coding maps :D

Okay so let's begin again.
I am RAEA and I love searching for hidden musical keys intuitively using songs I've never heard before, while also decoding information on the side as I consume the music...I like to live in the moment and transparently experience it as I type...using the duration--why and how I picked it and what things arrive within while I consume the music. I love numbers...they make me feel joy and happiness and although I no longer link them into Q, I do very much have Q as apart of my process and how and why I do things the way I do, all because Q taught me how to convert the letters into numbers and my decoding group in 2020 worked on MIL decodes...I took the knowledge outside and started applying it to inner soul messages that tend to sync with my process and my own MAP...I just like to teach otherrs how to achieve the same thing using their own intuitive process...

I know my ONE voice sync that soothes me...but I've grown wayyyyy past it now that I know purpose.

MOON

M 13
O 15
O 15
N 14

Now, I would add each number to continue to reduce until I can find a Q post number that will work...I also come up with some uniQ code/phrase using all these letters, like we do with acronyms--it helps us remember information...This process I use helps me remember pathways to my inner soul, heart, and I use my brain and I suppose the physical (fingers) to type it out...Ultimately, I just do this whole thing...to FEEL my way back HOME.

4665--(I've added all numbers in the sequence, now I have a new uniQ set of letters this produces as well, outside "MOON")

DFFE--
Definitely Free From Escapism
(I just made my own phrase using this coded lettering and it was just using the top things that came to mind intuitively...without trying to control the words that came to mind...So it is a message IMO that my soul wants me to hear...

So yes, I don't seek an escape...I am living in the moment at all times & free from desires to run anywhere...I am happy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-FrQnI3slU

First MOON song that comes to mind.

Sorry, I feel asleep last night in the middle of this post...Lol, I can't help meditating to Moon type space vibes...Hey this song reminds me of my Great Grandfather who was in the Navy...

I used to spend a lot of time at my great grandparents house. They loved to read and my grandfather loved playing cards at his reclining chair...He taught me a game once...Idk what it was...but I know he called me "goose" and taught me how to read, write, and do multiplication...he even helped me with science projects...The reason I am who I am today is because they were basically my parents and the house I wanted to be at all the time...My great grandparents had an RV and we'd go out to Lake Havasu which was a 5 hour drive from the house he built in Hesperia, CA. We would go down the CO River from Havasu and I'd feed the blackbirds crackers, we'd sit on the docks and let the fish nibble on our toes, and my great grandfather and I would swim under the pontoon boat...These are happy fragments.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZEcqHA7dbwM

Frank Sinatra was his favorite and my favorite was also their Bing Cosby on Vinyl...My great grandma Jean loved cooking meals and I used to get a notepad and pretend I was a server and take my great grandfathers order...heehee...

Then after dinner, we'd clean up the dishes, put on the records and dance and my great grandmother taught me how to balance a checkbook at a young age...I was around 9 or 10 years old...So yes, I guess I did have parents, but my great grandfather Alva Reynolds Ralston passed away in 2005 and my Great Grandmother passed away in 2020 I believe...I hadn't seen her since 2014 when I went out there on that random surprise trip...I wish I would have made time to hop on the phone more often and tell her I loved her...

Now she can see me from heaven and know that I am still following God and on the right path as they raised me...

My great grandfathers brother used to tell me how I had twinkles in my eyes...Awww..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNiwfqvb_yg

I dream of getting back here, to art where I belong...I am happiest when I am creating magic...Now some of this stuff is well beyond my skill set because I don't have power tools...but I bet I could find some awesome driftwood and sea glass on lake superior to add to my resin creations...I think it's so much better when we find the crystals for ourselves versus buying them from the store...Someone has already attached their energy to those ones and I like to choose even common rocks that call to my soul depending on their markings. It's all about being uniQ to me...and I am not a fan of store bought goods...I love creating my own things and bringing peace an love into the homes of others...

See I told you Moon means soooo much to me.

If someone wants to make one, no matter perfection level and if you have tools to create (I don't have setup currently)...I'd love to buy it from you and support an artistic approach to life...I want to get my sister Katy something special for her birthday as a way of saying thanks for allowing me to stay at her home while I figure things out in the beginning of a brand new approach at life...So yea...If ya wanna design and craft...I'll create the energy to pay you...Money is always at my fingertips through UberEats...and if I really really want something I work cities on the weekends and stay at rest stops...and can pull in great money...I hear it is $20 an hour guaranteed in the cities today...but I'm in rest mode...I worked over 60 hours last week and need a break to just chill...But if ya got this kinda skill, bring it to me...Let's chat!

This looks delicious!
Hey and warm milk is supposed to be soothing and relaxing...like the MOON itself...I am still saying that MOONDAY, belongs next to SUNDAY...Why are we missing a 15? I know the answer but I'm silent on teaching this stuff redundantly...Now it's time to just show cool moon stuff...Imagine if we didn't have a moon...shit would really be fucked up...

In my mind's eye...Females, if properly synced...should align with the 28 days of the moon cycle...But yea they fooked up the calendar too and we wonder why everything is all out of sync...The MAIN FEMALE was removed from the BIBLE...Can't glow on without her...gee wonder who that is...God's wife? YUP, SHE IS REAL! There is ONLY ONE! No one can take her place...Yusss....so God is angry about the lies...yet we all sit here and carry on (most do...I do not...fighting for this to be back in order daily...as long as I am not working myself to the ground..) WAKE UP!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CAZ2TDGQ68k

Hey...completely random pull...
Typed in Moonday, has a 4:44 duration...SWEET!
Loved the purple/aqua vibes on the cover as well...that is what pulled me in mostly and of course the moon!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FoSYG9TNZL8

Let's hear it together for the first time...It's so fun discovering NEW musiQ!