In my security monitoring file it will say that I have partied really hard. That's because I have partied really hard. The thing is... I don't give a cr*p about reputation anyway, and haven't done anything that directly hurt anyone, so it's ordinary human misadventure.

"Urban gay male in London partied hard... more in 10pm bulletin... YAWN!" I don't want reward, position, privilege, power, authority... so who cares how hard I have played? Doesn't mean it's a virtuous thing. But it is what it is. No leverage for anyone!

The real vice I see everywhere is religious spirits. Much worse and harder to kick than other destructive habits.