I am at peace today, having struggled to sleep last night. I have realised that I am in an abusive relationship with some family members (with me as victim) and it's time to withdraw until I am treated with due respect and loving care. If that means we don't communicate, so be it. I am worth the inner calm.
Same thing with me, it stays on your mind night and day because you can't get over the disrespect. I am done with those who show ugliness and disrespect. It is not worth my sanity. I am sorry you have that also. It will get easier and if you stay away from them your life will be a lot more peaceful.