I am at peace today, having struggled to sleep last night. I have realised that I am in an abusive relationship with some family members (with me as victim) and it's time to withdraw until I am treated with due respect and loving care. If that means we don't communicate, so be it. I am worth the inner calm.
I have done that with several family members...especially my mother...feel so much better....didn't realize how toxic it was until I said no more and walked away