Am trying to put into words the tension I feel right now (and hoping it gives some catharsis to others who recognise it).
On the one hand there is... never give up... fight for the children... we have come so far and are so near... I have put the work in so enjoy the upside... you were made for this... it's a privilege to experience and participate... you can help so many people... I know this ends well... the best is yet to come.
On the other hand is... I am traumatised... I feel betrayed by those close to me... the dues of Babylon are still arriving... the burden of injustice is so heavy... why are the honest made to hurt so much... everyday tasks seem to have become near impossible efforts... will this waiting ever end... I just want the pain to stop.
My resolution has been to take things a day at a time. When I fall over, rest a while, recover my strength, then carry on. Find the middle way between helpless/hopeless and Atlas Syndrome ("I will save the world — solo").
I think you are spot on with one day at a time. June has really been difficult on me. I feel something is literally trying to hold me down.
This has been a long road and if you don't treat it like a marathon you'll lose the race. I think many of us feel guilty resting or taking time for ourselves when there still so much that needs to be done. So don't because we need you ALL :)
So rest and meditate on the future and how your talents will bring so much knowledge to those children you're saving!
