Lord I would hope that it not a question of should or shouldn’t, but rather am I deserving. I have led an imperfect life and have sinned and hurt others in this life, but my way has not been one of negligent debauchery. I have consciously tried to correct my ways and lead my life as I believe you have instructed. Admittedly, it has not been easy but I am hopeful that my acts of kindness and generosity teamed with my willful prayers asking for forgiveness and guidance would show the regret and will to correct the deeds of my past. Lord if I am not worthy I do not want you to open this gate. I only ask you in return, am I worthy.