I am very much aware of how flawed people are called up to perform righteous works. Social media isn't the place to flaunt my flaws, but I definitely have them. It makes me uncomfortable when people put me on a pedestal. My self-compassionate response is to remind myself that we all come "as a package", and you cannot pick and choose only the bits you approve of or like.
All people are flawed so you are in 100% company! In God's kingdom, people are often called and THEN equipped. It also happens for non-believers. Enjoy living in His gifts. It is amazing, sometimes hard, always good.