How did people joining the intelligence services ever get inducted into all this occult knowledge? How do they keep a semblance of sanity when it turns out the backbone of it isn't even classified, just normies ignore it all? How do intelligence insiders manage ordinary human failure of their own, as nobody is morally pristine? How do you socialise at work when operating in a compartmentalised environment? How do you trust the institution you work for when you are a cog in the machine?
I know that there's a lot of "fiction" that is pseudo-documentary that answers all these matters and more. Am just emotionally exhausted from so many years of being out in public and the endless stress of waiting for resolution. Can't read books, watch long videos, sit still for talks. Too fried form excessive information warfare. I know in my heart I am not lazy or cowardly; the "trauma freezes" are real psychological injuries that affect me and my ability to engage. AU is pastoral support.
I have these questions also. While we’re busy trying to find and solve the puzzles of the rabbit holes, there are so many nuances we don’t see or understand at every level that have allowed these grave and disturbing evils to prevail for so long. I have to chock them up to the category of Gods divine plan.
On another note, Martin please do some research on adrenal fatigue. It’s a real thing that can be very hard on the body but can be helped with supplements and rest. Be well, fren.
