I am genuinely not well and finding it hard to work right now. It frustrates my inner warrior, who wants to battle, but simply cannot. Just have to rest and recuperate. Have managed about an hour at the laptop today before feeling wiped out. Cumulative stress of battle has done me in. Lack of bullets and bombs easily arms the self-critic who says there are no valid invisible wounds in an unseen war. Have to consciously override that internal narrative and reject the self-denigration. It’s OK to have fought myself into a messy mush. More honourable than those who didn’t enter the arena and remain unblemished.
Sending good vibes your way Martin, I understand what you are feeling. It comes on like a crashing wave and for a time we feel battered and thrashed by the swirling waters, then the feeling recedes and there is a moment of calm before another wave comes and once again hits us and wipes us out. We are left exhausted from wading (waiting 😉) and just trying to keep our heads above water.
Between waves, try and rest and regroup the best you can and know that our time of victory, rejuvenation and celebration is coming.
✨🙏🏼✨
