VK warned that anons would end up with PTSD, and it seemed a bit overblown at the time. We're still not through all this, and I can feel that I have real heath problems with long term stress and anxiety. I have chronic injuries from repeated exposure to traumatic situations (esp family, kids at risk, and betrayals of trust, psychopathic encounters). I am not fully functioning any more; I lose focus, I freeze up, I can't even look at stuff that is visually distressing and involves phsyical harm. My ears are ringing. I wake up with all kinds of stuff racing around my head. Being around normies exhausts me very quickly. Being around the awake keeps stirring up my worries. Being alone is painful but lets me regulate my activity to my energy. The hard bit is not being up to doing much in terms of writing and photography. I can do bursts when I am in my better state. The costs of dealing with 2019/2020/2021 are all coming due. Non-linear war gives you non-conventional war wounds.
Martin, I have been trying to find a way to throw this out there and ask any anons if they too were feeling this way. Thank you for sharing. I also remember VK telling us.
This is war and the damage that war does is real. I experience these come and go painful episodes. Most recently, including today, I'm experiencing deep stress and anxiety, head pain, crying, pain in my shoulders and neck... just so overwhelmed and exhausted. I'm not good around people and stay away.
I know we will be needed to help others, so it is good that we can help each other now. This is one way to do that, Martin. Sharing all that you have here reminds us that this is a battle, we are fighting and we are not alone.
Peace be with you and fellow anons.
In the Midwest, watching the corn and soy poison us all, really up-close-like now.
Every word you said.
