It got to the point w/ mine that everything I wanted ... needed ... to share w/ her ... scared her.
How could I go on doing that to her?
And I *had* to do what I was doing. God Himself drove me to the Truth in Sep of '69 on my 18th birthday .. I remember the day vividly but I still wouldn't know *Jesus* for another 40 YEARS!
Got married in '78 and left 19 yrs later after our daughter left home. The whole time w/ my nose buried in one book after another SEARCHING ... and SEARCHING.
Early 90s a friend got me on dial-up through the local Univ pre WWW and I started 'mainlining' FTP if you will and listening to Art Bell every night all night as I worked nights. Through Art had ringside seats to Ruby Ridge, Waco and then OKC in real time live radio.
My wife just couldn't take it.
Today she's on board w/ the whole 'cultural' agenda and double vaxx'd. And she used to be ANTI-vax going WAY back.
So there it is.
A HARD rain .. and a GLORIUS day .. a comin