I find there are two battles going on: the outer one in the world, and the inner one inside of me. They are both raging away.
In many ways the inner one against your personal demons, failures, and weaknesses is the harder one.
"Spiritual warfare" indeed it is.
I'm the same, get my hopes up that it's almost over, and bam nothing. Ny city waitress here losing everything with that prick Governor of mine.