I have put a Promethean effort into intellectual deconstruction of Q vs MSM. Now realise that I lacked necessary spiritual foundations and care/support/guidance. You seek balance, but body cannot provide it, no matter how excessive the endeavours; just unbalances you more. Had to overcome a lot of programming and allergic reactions to let myself “look up”. Resolves the extreme alienation I was feeling with the world; need a unifying container to reconcile my own crazies with world big crazies. High price to “get it”, but only in worldly terms. Can see the path at long last. Not about abandoning mind and body pleasures but only doing it in ways aligned to the holy. If I find myself back on Twitter soon then my purpose and message is very different to the one I left behind, barring art and beauty.

The Holy Family: Beauty, Truth, Goodness....

I have the deepest respect for you, Martin! The way you are willing and able to articulate your inner world is utterly heroic and inspiring! You have the enormous gift (and it may be somewhat of a curse as well, I suspect...) to express exactly what so many of us are feeling. By showing us your process of growth you help us gain a new perspective on ours. May the Holy Spirit fill you and be with you always!!!! Thank you, Martin!

I have behaved badly, but paid attention to the self-harm process and its spiritual foundations. Am learning about childhood spiritual abuse… the invisible cousin of rhe other better known types.