The real war really is internal... will I follow what my spirit knows is The Way, or will I let my mind or body send me elsewhere to satisfy their desires? Over and over... the fight is to stay on the narrow path (which I have sometimes strayed a long way from).

Earth rhelm is not for the faint of heart. My guess is that it is not my favorite rhelm, by far. But I friggin signed up for this experience so Im muddling through. Maybe it gets better, maybe I leave here before it comes to fruition but I came here for the experience. What a dumbshit! 😂😅🤣 But seriously, I totally agree with you and share your assessment. The struggle is nonstop now. Even catching a buzz is no fun and the consequences greater. Narrow path indeed.