please pray for me. im reaching a breaking point with my narcissist parents..

I can relate. My mother, sister, and mother's mother were all narcissists. I lived across the country from all and only visited rarely. They are all out of my life now, deceased except for sister. AU is the only real family I have, but I think that is why I ended up here and went through the trials and tribulations I did. It made me realize this is my real family, the only people who really understand one another. Just how we are connected, I don't know, but I'm eager to learn why. We are your family Lucas.

ya. my parents went behind my back and got jabs, lying to me for nine months.
They continuously lie, gaslight me, etc. i tried finding a theraoist and my parents tricked therapist as covert narcissists.
My sister attacked me physically and later lied saying I was an intruder.
i am beginning to believe my family was a punishment/test from God. They have all almost killed me but i still delusionally want them and our relationship to be saved.
i don’t know how to escape this trauma bond cycle.

what can i do..