It is a bittersweet day for me with 5Y∆. I have struggled in ways that don't belong in public. Helping others with clarity, encouragement, and amusement has given me diversionary purpose. The underlying wounds and fractures are still there and are not yet healed.
In an odd way the resolution of the Q matter with truth and justice, and even newfound financial freedom, doesn't help and makes it worse. The basic problem of "who am I?" and what I identify with hasn't advanced much. The sense of self built on the mind and body (not spirit) brings a tricky legacy.
"A policeman's lot is not a happy one" goes the old song, and maybe it's true of all protector activities including being a (digital) warrior. There's an innate sadness in being called upon to sacrifice and suffer because fools, cowards, and sociopaths only care about themselves. Why me, why now, why here? I just wanted to be left alone.
Still seeking inner peace... have my internal calms and storms going on.
Love casts out fear.
Love conquers all.
Father God, Jesus
AND You Make A Majority.💕🙏💕
2015... I was abandoned by family
because I am a Trumpster.
Then totally alone for two years
because I didn't get the jab.
I'm not invited to anything, to go anywhere.
I chose to chalk it up to their loss about their words and deeds because it takes TOO much effort to be miserable. I may feel alone, but I'm never alone. I have ongoing conversations with Jesus and Father God. 💕🙏💕👍💕 I chose to be happy.
