It is a bittersweet day for me with 5Y∆. I have struggled in ways that don't belong in public. Helping others with clarity, encouragement, and amusement has given me diversionary purpose. The underlying wounds and fractures are still there and are not yet healed.
In an odd way the resolution of the Q matter with truth and justice, and even newfound financial freedom, doesn't help and makes it worse. The basic problem of "who am I?" and what I identify with hasn't advanced much. The sense of self built on the mind and body (not spirit) brings a tricky legacy.
"A policeman's lot is not a happy one" goes the old song, and maybe it's true of all protector activities including being a (digital) warrior. There's an innate sadness in being called upon to sacrifice and suffer because fools, cowards, and sociopaths only care about themselves. Why me, why now, why here? I just wanted to be left alone.
Still seeking inner peace... have my internal calms and storms going on.
Baby steps, & be kind to you. Observe the thoughts/feelings but stay detached. It’s a personal soul journey but you have an abundance of postive ‘public support’ & love behind you. Honour the Soul & Divinity within you, nuture your inner child, & remember we are all growing. Hope the 2nd tip helps for the shortterm & some simple but effective breath work will 100% help balance those lower emotions. You’ve got this
Atma Mahatma
