My experience of the institutional world is that it is filled with non-autists who are emoting a lot and are trying to manipulate the world into their image rather than trying to line everything up with simplicity. It is exhausting to model and participate in. My worst fear is that when this all goes down someone will tap me on the shoulder and ask me to do a "real job" again. Not sure I am capable of re-entering the structured, timed, organised world.
I am faced with a similar challenge right now. For 10+ years, I've owned and managed businesses, working for myself or as a partner, more or less. Recent events forced me to flee with my two daughters and it's looking like I'll have to get a low paying night job so I can continue homeschooling. Something huge must happen or I'll be forced to give up another part of myself. I've always known what to do about issues up until this point. Now I'm just waiting for what seems like the inevitable. You are talented and well known in an incredible community. Please don't waste any more moments worrying about your future. Yours is bright!
