My heart goes out to you. My wife and I sold everything and moved out into the middle of nowhere so I could build us a home to live in for the rest of our lives. Covid hit. I got sick, lost my job and spent lots of money on doctors. House not finished. We live in a camper with our dogs. I couldn't find work cuz I am no mask, no test no vax no way. Savings dwindled down to nothing. People dumping dogs out here and we rescue as many as possible. My wife is working but hates her job because they are ultra liberal and hate us because we are conservative. My "family" and "friends" out here just put us on ice because we are Trump supporters and American patriots. I'm not having a good relationship with God right now but will pray for you. I will pray that you find some comfort, that something wonderful will come your way. If I ever won the lottery I would help as many people as I could. My wife is so strong. It pains me that she struggles so. Please hang on.