not meant to bring the vibe down, but to express how many of us may be feeling:
i have 0 drive. 0 interest in doing anything. normie stuff doesn’t interest me. i can’t even psych myself up to do the simplest things.
i’m not at all a lazy person, i work my ass off when i care. i love working with my hands and building. but there’s nothing right now that i’ve got a hand in that i can really dedicate my energy to, it’s all a facade.
i feel so useless and neutered, ‘waiting’…
Same. Never thought I would feel this way. I just dont care about anything I used to... including friends, family, working out, job, money, responsibilities etc. I play games and read books to keep my mind occupied/distracted from the constant avalanche of horrible things happening in the world. I beat the chess master at the Renaissance festival the other weekend, was incredible. But I'm mostly hollow. Tough to find meaning when everything feels meaningless. It might be depression but that doesn't exactly define it... it's a deep empathetic sadness combined with a strong sense of betrayal and anger. Like a captured lion or something. I just want to leave the circus.
