It is never easy to lose the person who loved and nurtured you. The person whom you emulated as a young child and into adulthood. So let her light shine thru you. Everything she taught you; it's now time to pass on to others. My dad passed unexpectedly when I was 18 years old (I'm 64 now). I often recount that day when I was told, but then I turn to his life's lessons and try to bring his compassion for people into my daily life. You will survive she has taught you how. Love, hugs, and prayers for both of you.