I would have to say it is worse to be a "mental slave" because the one thing I am sure of is that I am blessed to be awakened to the lies and manipulation. I can't go back to being asleep, I wouldn't want to go back even if I had a choice. Together we are fighting against the greatest enemy the world has known: evil.
If I can do anything to contribute to the demise of [their] evil system of human trafficking, oppression, lies and manipulation around the world, then I am willing to suffer the mental stress being awake causes. Those who are currently asleep are going to question "How did I not see what was going on?" We are a part of something Biblical and historical. The Best Is Yet To Come!