Here is what I find hard right now. I understand that anons are being put through the grinder in prep for what's coming; it's been a training course to take on very big responsibilities of keeping society "sub-critical" as this all "goes hot". We're knowingly pushed to the edge as that saves lives elsewhere and contains ruin risks.

That said, information war, psychological war, biological war, cultural war, genetic war, racial war, ethnic war... are all tier 1 first class warfare. In particular information war exposes you to overwhelming (and often gruesome) inputs and creates a kind of long term decision fatigue on what to do with it.

I am finding that the simplest tasks involving my laptop, organising, admin are becoming really challenging. It's like a learned aversion to dealing with complex data systems. I can still listen to music, watch the clouds, talk to friends. Have to remind myself I am not lazy; mind needs proper rest and occasional healing too.

i’m not lazy. i’m absolutely a go getter and i want to kick some ass. but in my day to day doing normie work and being expected to fall into the machine? i slow down. i can’t focus. i have 0 passion for what is being asked of me. it’s all just mundane and repetitive.

i have passion for building and living and seeing a direct impact in the world and in the lives of others. i am absolutely not lazy, but i just need to right opportunity.

until that point, we wait.
suffer quietly and take the time we need to not blow up, but we’ll be ready.
we’re all ready.

born for this.
woken up for this.
here for this.