There are moments that I feel sad about being at an information disadvantage compared to others… but I have signed no confidentiality agreement and am unburdened by classified info. This is a convergence process of the esoteric (but constrained) with the exoteric (but liberated). Others pay a price of internal and external compartmentalisation that I don’t face. Plus as a synthesist it would be unbearable for me, so on balance I am in the ideal place.
Continue to be who you are. You are wonderful and are in the ideal place.