My struggle is to find inner peace without it being contingent upon resolution of affairs in the outer world. I cannot say that I am doing well at this quest right now. The waiting is stealing away my peace, and every attempt to reengage with the world churns up my feelings again. And it will pass; just someday we all pass, too, and there is no more time to find our peace.
If it means anything, you are not alone friend. When you really know there is no sleeping until the bridegroom arrives.
