i understand your pain... i was abandoned by my spouse 20 years ago and thought my world would stop spinning.... but look.... i survived!! you will too... one second, one minute, one hour ... one day at a time!! please ... dont do anything to harm yourself... this too too shal pass!!! even though we are not in tge same room we can still support and love one another!! rash decisions are permanent, irrevocable.... forever... please put your pain and hurt and heart in Hods hands!!