You have purpose. You are NOT alone. I know it is very dark for you right now - this is grief and shock. Let yourself go through it. Be how you need to be. Your Light WILL come back on fully again. We are so close Joey. So close. I too have shared your frustration - we have been waiting for the rest to wake up in order TO (x y z)? I don't know about that. Only you will know why this happened - no one else. You and God. The answers will come. For now - grieve. Anytime you need to talk - we are here. 🤗 Happy you are getting so much support tonight.