About July of 2019 I began to drink daily, and I began to feel So Lonely, which was Odd since I had many friends, family members, and so many customers who were like Family. I drank myself right out of everything, and almost truly ended Up Alone in July 2020, I prayed to God as asked him to help me stop as I took my last drink. Then I just quit, I quit filling my glass everyday 7 days a week around 10 am with Vodka and redbull, which never emptied until about 2 or 3 am. It was out of character for Me, I drank before yes, but never like that. In a snap, I had NO interest in being drunk, God took it from Me because I ASKED from My Heart for help. What I realized was I FELT THINGS, like never before, and I believe this is what made me drink, I couldn't control MySelf within. I remembered I had received a message in Jan of 2020. I took a look back over the last year and half and things began to jump out at me..........👇

Many of my struggles within led me back to childhood times, a time where things took place, things I had no clue were causing my life to spin in circles, a loop, same things coming around about every 5 years. I also realized that I began holding to my line with others more so than I had ever done before, and it caused some problems for others, but in my post-addiction state I saw them as liberating for Me. I noticed that in a very short period of time I kind of fast forwarded my life through some quick experiences, when compared to My Dad, its like I went through the same transition in Jobs, Volunteer Positions, Marriage troubles, Drinking, raising a Son as My own who was not my blood son, He is MY Boy, but in about a yr a checked all the boxes My Dad did in 15 yrs, and culminated in him becoming a preacher. Well I have come to realize I am doing the same thing Here. Once I faced my issues, I become free, felt the holy spirit within, and was gifted proof of God. You may be as I am.