It will be fix...Trust the energies/plan. It's like when ppl wake up from the matrix, ppl will remember their mission & click into their knowing-due to DNA activation/ancient lost knowledge like meditation. I was like that before. I was devoted Catholic, until my inner guidance/telepathic kicked into gear & been guided to walkaway from Evil Religion & started meditation in nature in 2014. I wasn't told by this by any other ppl but just the automatic intuition. N 45 is a Light/Blue Ray Co-Lyran Guardian. Not everyone know, but he's been supporting the Grid work WW w/ his team of blue rays/Sisterhood of Rose, as well as here in the New Atlantis/New Earth System (per GFL's plan 4 win)...why Q+ has a double, bcuz he gets called for duty to be on the field to break the dark system/Hz into these energy ctrs crossings/ley lines. Not sure if you heard Lorie, but she disclosed this last yr (link below), w/c I knew b4 hand in early 2019 who 45 is. Marker 6:09 https://youtu.be/Hju17fXIriQ

I am further behind you. I have connected with internet sources and started opening my third eye. I do not have a mentor. I did have a dream where I was with several people that I did not know. We had andles with white flames. I held my hand out with my candle. As the leader poured his candle into mine, it turned blue and we all had blue. Is this blue ray significance? I woke up quickly and my body was leaning off the bed with my hand held out like I was holding the candle. It was real. When my grandmother died, I was in 5th grade, I was visited at night be a cloud of white buzzing energy. I was scared. I do not remember everything. Iremember going inside and there was a room and a person in meditation type seated position. He told me his name was Denver and not to worry. i think I need to do hypnotic regression to know what happened,. Sorry to give long post. I have not had anyone to talk to. My messsages are telling me that I need to find others to work in teams.