Beautiful, It takes strength to open yourself up and lay it all out there for everyone to see then acknowledge to yourself you need help and follow through with continuing to be a better person in control.
My addiction wasn't drugs, I was addicted to my first husband so much that he cheated on me over an over, I'd keep taking him back, begging him to to come back, over the years we had 3 children and after my youngest was 3 months old he left once again. My mind totally snapped in 1986. I had postpartum psychosis but, was tested for every drug on the books. I came back clean however, since the Doctors didn't put two & two together they just started pumping their Antiphychotics in me. Most of which knocked me out and I was worse off than before, my Mom had to care for my children. The Doctors continue to adjust their drugs until Christmas Night 1995,woke with a full blown episode my partner(now husband) took me to hospital and I was diagnosed with being Bipolar.

The past 35 years have been an awakening for me of myself similar to yours. I totally understand what you've been through. Life throughs us curve balls and it's up to us to hit those balls out of the park or just let them fly right by us and walk away without gaining anything positive.
I'm so proud of you for the work you've accomplished. Stay Stong & Beautiful You Deserve Everything Good & Positive In Life Your Heart Desires.