I can be as screwed-up, wasteful, lazy, irresponsible, and misguided as anyone else. The nature of social media filters most of the crazy stuff out; we all have private lives where we explore and make occasional (or even frequent and repetetive) mistakes. The more people fall in love with the curated avatar of myself, the less comfortable I feel. I have worked hard at doing the right thing when it comes to this public mission, undoubtedly, and am fine with the credit for it. Yet there is a healthiness to this "fast" period away from the "maddening crowd" of Twitter. If I find myself back in that situation (hundreds of thousands of followers and rising fast) then I might play things a bit differently in future. There are many traps and pitfalls to having the flattery of fame,. even at a minor scale.
It boils down to choices. You are reacting to other peoples reactions. Sometimes it is important to just say "thank you" and avoid the pitfall of the emotional tie in. Only you can know your true avatar, or ghost in the machine. Just know that you are shining a beacon of light, regardless of the outcome..... Sorry, I do not want to sound harsh, only honest.
