Does anyone else have days where they just don’t want to be here anymore?

I am an unwell caregiver of unwell animals & unwell mom, am married to an unwell, obese alcoholic & every single relationship I have, the other parties are in varying degrees of Matrix comfortability.

My having awakened has changed my life 💯from the frying pan of the last 50 years into the fire of the last 6.

Having survived abuse, I recognize the symptoms that come with surviving…apathy, utter fatigue, your whole inner self becoming cryogenically preserved in the hopes the sun will come back out again…

I say all this, knowing the good things coming WITHOUT DOUBT. I am so drained, I cannot maintain my energy anymore. There has been more going out than has been coming in for far too long.

AoE-Happy Thanksgiving.

You have compelled me to open my 1st social media account here on AU. I had to, b/c I wanted to say to you how much your personal story pains me to hear, b/c I feel your posts,, & others on this site, have been a source of great joy through greater understanding. Your compilation of posts have been poignant, thought provoking, & even inspirational at times.

I have been visiting AU for @ least 4 years anonymously, & your posts are 1 of my favorite daily reads

They say God doesn't give us more than we can handle. Whether true-I do know, through him all things are possible.

It feels funny you telling you this, b/c I feel like I'm telling you that which you already know-but, it's through our most trying times that we need to reflect & meditate on God's love & pray to him from our hearts. Never give up. He has your hear for a reason-maybe, if only, being a flicker of light in a dark period for those of us who carry the burden of having our eyes opened.