Every one of our paths are unique as God put us on. It has created each of our uniqueness in Gods design for us. Some people want to be 'cool' or 'fit in' or control how and what you feel, but you know what most of us want? To be our unique self that God created us as.
Let go of trying to hold on to something that is not you. Let yourself shine as you were designed to by every single hardship God put in your path, that created you into the beautiful, truthful loving, light that you are. Don't let anyone keep you from what God has created you to be on your path. You will know what that is when you look back at your lessons and take the puzzle pieces and build your puzzle. It will guide you to your destiny.