Familiar story! I sometimes miss my $3,500 biweekly check, all the THINGS I had accumulated that didn't mean much. Lost in twilight zone.Today I live on $100 a week, and miss nothing. Once you leave the matrix, none of that is important any more. I enjoy birds, bees, neighbor's cats and dogs, dirt, food from the garden, sunshine, rain, walking - cause I don't have a car, and don't need one. God is amazing when you look to Him and see He is your source for everything. The fairly tale life is over!