Right now, I just want to be able to live peacefully in my own home and travel freely without authorities trying to steal what little material possessions I have. Entities like DVLA, Transport for London, and municipal councils are irredeemably corrupt. So many people are suffering terribly from the mafia who are running everything. We all know awful stories of criminality by men in uniforms, who somehow believe that government edict trumps all law and morality. It's all a nothingness in comparison to the hideous stuff that's hinted at elsewhere and underground, and it still hurts to see the rape of your country. As a super-empath autist I'm finding myself very variable right now. Some days I can fight furiously, others I am close to immobile. The PTSD of anons is real. The ongoing injustices and incursions from the state keep causing trauma wounds. None of these institutions are legitimate after Covid. It all has to be razed and rebuilt. It can't be rushed, either.
I find great solace with my animals (cats, horse, even the chickens - one in particular is most definitely the 'mother hen') - they always tell the truth, and know when I am low... I hope you have a pet. They are a great support.
Otherwise, when it seems life is trying to buck me off, or wash me away, I find cleaning or sorting things helps, it puts me back in control.
Its a small thing, like a meditation, but it helps recenter, refocus me.
Hope you feel better soon.
