I hear you, Patriot. You are not alone in the way you feel. I wish I can offer something better, but maybe just knowing there are others who feel the same, might help.

Walking near my apartment, I heard this talk between a father and his Pre K age daughter who he was picking up from school early. The small child was crying loudly in tears for her mask..she would not take a step further without it:

"But daddy I have to wear a mask. I need a mask!"
"I don't have your mask."
"Daddy, please, I need a mask. I'm coughing!"

I don't know what else to say. I really just keep to myself. I thought we were going to help others. I can't even help myself these days. Where exactly are all these people we hear are "waking up"? Folks here just going about their days doing what they must daily to survive. "Waking up" is not on the to-do list.