Like most anons, I feel exhausted, but locating the tiredness is hard. It's not physical, but mental, and emotional. To overcome it, I have to keep on reaching into my own moral foundation, reject my own urge to self-destruct (and end the pain), and look forward to a day when I can fully express myself in service to all without artificial limits. If you have the faith we will prevail and these minuscule acts of perseverance and defiance have meaning, then you can carry on. It is often a trivial action — admin, housework, self-care — that needs to be given focus and energy. In many ways they are harder than the obvious and grandiose acts of opposition to the demoralisation and oppression we are constantly subjected to.
These acts also give us a sense of control over our lives.
When I feel as you describe, I clean something... I control when, where, how, and the end result.
We get so few opportunities in our lives to have this level of autonomy.
The simplest act can recenter us, keep us on an even keel.
