For me as hard as I try, 2 outa 10xs I screw it up. Heck 2 outa 100xs somedays. The problem at some point becomes why did I do, say, take, buy, watch or forget a praise?
My conscience/heart has been occupied by the Holy Spirit. And it's a moment by moment play by play battle within me now. My thoughts are playing on God's big screen every moment of every day now. And Christ is running interference with Him on my behalf every moment. Man that gives me "The Great Hope!" Now all I want to do is learn, Everything Scripture.
That the only thing I can take with me when my time comes. It's no longer a need- it's my only Want.
I don't care who knows either.
It amazing and fearful all at the same time.And I will never get it right. I was born in sin, and will die in sin. But Forgiven none the less.