NO. I am not enjoying the SHOW. Want to kill myself. Cannot take any more. All I can do is go through the motions but for what?
We need you and God needs you. You are His child and He loves you. We love you. Talk to God about your troubles and thank Him for your blessings, too. Do it daily. It may feel weird at first, but I promise you it will begin to bring you a peace and joy that surpasses understanding.