NO. I am not enjoying the SHOW. Want to kill myself. Cannot take any more. All I can do is go through the motions but for what?
Unplug, go for a walk, learn a new skill, read some scripture, have a cookout, talk to God, listen to music, listen to the natural world, listen and watch for signs.
Take a break, part of our journey is to recharge and return stronger as we practice the skill of being in the storm.
Each time we last longer between recharges, and eventually when the tempest rages, we learn to be at peace when the hurricane wall passes over.
Not despite it, but rather we know it is nothing compared to the origins of who we really are and who we are the image and likeness of.
You will be ok.