NO. I am not enjoying the SHOW. Want to kill myself. Cannot take any more. All I can do is go through the motions but for what?
Jesus has got you in this storm and he is walking with you an will never forsake you... Just Breath...You got this...You will make it!...
Here are some songs of encouragement when i am feeling this way:
https://youtu.be/hnjeMwxFuBA ( Just Breath)
https://youtu.be/BUvoKgpeSyA ( Tell your heart to beat again)
https://youtu.be/fxjofrjnfXU ( Hold On)